I want to give up sometimes. School is just too hard right now.
I probably shouldn’t have started this blog post off with that sentence, but that is definitely how I feel. Remember about a month ago when I told you my mother was getting brain surgery, well– she did and it was a success. (Thank God) She is recovering well and just celebrated her 40th birthday. But now my academic reality is setting in. I was on leave from school for about a month and now I’m back. Well, kind of. School is over, but I have a heap of work to get done… By myself. Yeah, I know.. How am I supposed to do my physics without my professor? I know. It took me three hours to finish my homework last night by myself and when I got to the end there was a little blurb that said, “If your answer is more or less than 72, something went wrong. Please explain why.” I really wanted to say, “Well, piece of physics homework— I did this entire homework without any direction” but instead I said, “I think I was off by a factor of ten somewhere.” And that’s only one class. I have exams, papers, worksheets, and research projects to get through.
I don’t know how I’m going to do it.
This is going to be harder than I thought..
If I die from academic burnout please bring banana nut muffins and stuffed animals to my funeral. Thanks.